Sometimes, I look back on my mission, and wonder why I thought it was so hard. This blog is filled with examples of when I had hard times, but I was able to pull through. I'm doing just fine with OCD and anxiety and depression now, why was it so hard on my mission?
And then......
I remember..
I don't know if relapse is the right word. But the last few weeks have been particularly difficult. I made a personal decision to go off of my medication. My doctor said I wouldn't know how it really feels until I'd been off for about a month.
Let me tell you, It's been 5 weeks, and I know how it really feels.
It's hard. OCD is hard. And these last few weeks have been hard.
I don't know what else I should say.
Since this blog is meant to help those that may be experiencing mental illness, I thought it was important to share all aspects of the experience. It's not all self discovery, and patience, and hope. There's a lot of despair, and pain, and hell, as well.
I guess I'm here to say, like a little kid once said,
"Hope ya know, I had a hard time."
I'm so grateful for your willingness to be vulnerable and share your experiences like this. We all need one another and are here to strengthen one another. I am always amazed by a person's strength/The Savior's strength after that person lets me see a moment of their weakness. Thanks for that. You are influencing people for good, my dear!
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