DUMPY - THE 8TH DWARF

Even though I've taken a brief hiatus from blogging, my mind is still going a million miles an hour. I have thought lots about this blog, though my activity on it does not reflect it.

Anyways, a few months ago I was involved in a voice competition. I received lots of great feedback, but one judge in particular put me to thinking. One of her criticisms on my first round was that I need to wear something more formal. I took that gracefully, and dressed up more for the second round. The next day, I received my comments and she mentioned that I have a glorious voice and I shouldn't dress it in something dumpy.

This sent me over the edge, and I didn't know what to do. After lots of discussing and thinking, I determined why this bothered me so much. In Junior High and High School, I spent a lot of my time convincing myself that looks didn't matter or define my worth as a young woman. By the time I got to college, I had learned that lesson pretty thoroughly.

When that adjudicator wrote that comment, I felt that all those years of convincing myself that looks didn't define my worth were being challenged more than ever. I was distraught. How dare this woman tell me that my looks defined my worth as a singer.

Well, I calmed down. And my Mom taught me a great lesson. She helped me realize that
1 - I was right. Looks didn't define my individual worth as a Woman. And
2 - Dressing up so my outside matched my inside wasn't a bad thing and didn't improve my          worth, it just reflected it.

Anyways, it was a weird lesson to learn, and very hard to describe. But I learned that I could look nice and worry a bit more about how I looked while believing that it didn't define my Divine Worth.

P.S. Yay for great hair days!!!!!!!